It’s been a long time since I last updated. Many things have changed since the last time. 2012 has been a great year because of a special person. Someone who has given me so much memories. From the day we first met, to our first date, to our first overseas trip.. All the way till now.. So much has happened. So much happiness, so much anger, so much sadness and tears. History has repeated itself, and I have to face the same agony once again.. Alone.
“Once is a mistake, twice is a choice.”
True. Because he has already warned me. That he does not want any commitment. And yet I chose to believe that he may change his mind as time passes.. Naive. Stupid. Things should have ended last year.. Maybe then, he would regret losing me. Now.. He is just an empty shell. Going out with him is like going out by myself. That kills me the most.. Seeing couples “playing” reminded me of how we used to be like. And look at us now? Nothing I do or say matters to him anymore..
There are no coincidences. We met for a reason. I don’t blame you for not liking me. Because the heart doesn’t lie about feelings. I only hate you for not giving us a chance to try.. The smiles and laughters were real..